Happy 6th Birthday in heaven

My little boy, Lucas David, would have been 6 years old today.  He was born still at 2:01am on Saturday, January 24, 2004. He had pudgy little cheeks meant for squeezing. wispy black hair.  And he was a linebacker already at 8 pounds 13 ounces and 21 inches long.

God, for reasons unknown to me, took him from my womb where he grew and leapt and slept straight to heaven. This image is the one I hold of my peapod.  And despite this journey of grief that I am currently on, I WILL hold him in my arms one day. I know that!  It is a hope that I cling to...

2:01am, January 24, 2004 - That was the moment our little boy was born still.

Today he would have been 4. I woke up at 2:01 this morning and was awake for about an hour before sleep overtook me again. I was fuzzy and distracted all day - stumbling when I walked, couldn't write/spell, just feeling fuzzy. I purchased a heart for one of my charm bracelets - for my little boy who will always be in my heart. I miss him so and don't think the hole he left in my heart will ever close completely - and I don't really want it to.

Happy Birthday 4th Birthday Lucas David!!!

I hope you had a wonderful celebration in Heaven. We love you and miss you sooo much.

Mommy and Daddy